We are less than a week away from 2015. Seems a little crazy to me but as I tweeted yesterday 2014 has been been good to me, my heart is full. It’s been a year that started with a broken heart and is ending with a heart that has so much to appreciate, love and is getting used to being vulnerable.
2014 In Review:
-Highlights: One best friend got married, and the other got engaged. I hit a point in April-May where I started to settle in who I was dating because I truly didn’t believe love was going to happen. I was 27 and cynical. Thankfully I was smart enough to let it go and someone so great came into my life. I bravely went to counseling and have started living life vulnerably with walls down. (Along with counseling I witnessed some ugly ugly parts of myself. I’m working on those. Good thing life is a learning adventure.)
-Game Changers: Joining a Lifegroup. Hands down one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. In short these girls are my home team. They understand me and never make me feel less than. Meeting my boyfriend. I won’t say much more about that other than he’s changed my life. Lastly, I finally said goodbye to some toxic people in my life. It was by choice finally, I typically try to make every relationship work. Wayyyy beyond when it’s over. This year I’d had enough of being torn down. Walking away from that friendship might be the best thing I’ve done for myself.
-Things I Focused On: Bettering myself. For the first time in a long time I focused on taking care of my heart, making sure I cleared out the lies I’ve believed. I’ve gone into my struggles. Lately, I’ve focused on forgiving. Whoa let me tell you bitterness is hard to let go of but it’s beautiful freedom when you do. I’ve focused on being a good girlfriend, not perfect but I’m actively making myself better in life. I also realized we aren’t in a competition with each other. I want to be known for building people up, not tearing people down.
-Reflection: In the end 2014 might have been one of the best years I’ve ever had. Personal growth, the friends that have come into my life and this relationship. I’ve changed, I’m more aware, and I’m living in freedom. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to those who have made my life so great.
-The future: I’ve talked about what I want to focus on in the next year. I want to work more on understanding and listening. There’s so much to hear when you aren’t speaking or worrying about responding. Just listening. I want to detox from Social Media. That’s necessary. I really, really just want to build on what I started in 2014. I want my heart to stay full and open and to continue to love.